nine

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 20:14:20 GMT

I can never convince you; I am worth it to stay.

all these people are marrying high school sweethearts.

Wed, 02 May 2007 13:46:39 GMT

if only we still talked.

i have a bicycle. its in louisiana.
i have a broken heart and worn mind.
i have thousands of scars all over this body that you wouldnt recognize
and i still dont sleep.

the guy im with smells just like you
that will always be in my memory
such a weird thing.

july 18, 2003

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 20:51:17 GMT

it is awful how this dream fades
never appreciated
never re

things (or lack thereof) to get over.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 03:11:51 GMT

1. love
2. letters
3. kitten
4. fat
5. roommates
6. friends
7. moving
8. long hours

more to come

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 00:44:47 GMT

i wish i had aplace to live.

lets pity me.

yo negros

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 06:47:18 GMT

everyday is a new chapter of my life
so sterotypical
but i never know where im going

some new influence always comes and pushes me a different way

im so happy
alive.

my family is being loving
i have a fabulous boyfriend
and two best friends
its all i need right now.

i cant wait to move to austin
just one more month

horoscopes

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 05:21:14 GMT

leo: Love is not as simple as you thought and you may not be prepared to pay the price. You might believe that you must give up something important to you and you really don't want anyone else to control your plans. A surprise awaits if you just communicate your needs. But do it nicely, and don't expect everything to change overnight.

pisces;Tension between work and home can escalate into an unresolvable dilemma, especially if you are unwilling to negotiate. There is a way through conflict now and it isn't about just being nice to get your way. The key is compassion. State the specifics of your needs as carefully as you can. Then let the discussion unfold without trying to control the outcome. Your love is being tested and the best solution will have something to offer everyone involved.

misunderstandings

Tue, 23 May 2006 06:50:02 GMT

i word things all wrong and often jumble the word order in my sentences
or when i joke around, no one gets it
because i am often inappropriate and not at all amusing.

i hate when people misread comments i make that are sexual especially. these people are often friends who know about how often i respond negatively to sexual activities due to fear of being objectified thus losing possibility for interaction and sucessful emotional intimacy.

oh well
i hope at least tonight i wont have to fight off big black women with the help of robert and a pair of muddy betsey stilettos from my job at the bookstore like my dream last night...

that dream sucked.

stupid cunt.

Wed, 17 May 2006 15:10:09 GMT

name calling isnt as rewarding as it once was.

what once was easy hardly comes....

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:13:15 GMT

the hallucinations keep me from rewarding sleep.

Tue, 09 May 2006 19:51:46 GMT

he deserves so much more than he gets.
i wish..

update

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:16:13 GMT

my life isnt quite going as planned
but imnot the planner
im the drifter
and ive realized that only i can change that

so i am here alone
where no one reads my thoughts
and everyone who needs to find me knoww
the places where i hide.

fat

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 20:43:37 GMT

grilled chicken
0 cigarettes
dietcoke
unsweetened iced tea.
walked to work and back.
45minutes cardio.

life

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 08:37:03 GMT

i am a stupid girl.
grow up
or give up.

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 11:56:48 GMT

i told a stranger at a bar that i was going to kill myself tonight.
i didnt mean for it to come across that way.

dear stranger,
i am still alive.

fuck up

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 11:36:56 GMT

thats me.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 23:35:58 GMT

i am scared of jude law's penis...
in fact i am terrified...

♥
sk

yesterday

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 10:48:03 GMT

breakfast; plain organic nonfat soy yogurt
lunch; salad with spinach, tomatoes, avacados, black beans, pappasito's salsa
dinner; green tea, a piece of string cheese, handful of almonds

just a note to self... why do i feel so out of control?

posted in myspace

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 19:57:10 GMT

last night i dreamed that i walked into the workout room and stuff from the closet in there was strewn about but the closet was closed... and i said come out... and a man did and he shot me in the chest... then he was like oh god oh god... like he had come to kill but not me... and i couldnt move or breathe... and wanted to tell him it was okay...

then i dreamed of the funeral...

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 08:07:30 GMT

i joined a jewish dating site today. im not a jew and im not interested in online dating but still... its probably the coolest thing ever...

im going to bed

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 00:32:58 GMT

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 19:16:31 GMT

thanks for not offering to help... i will be your ghost

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 15:25:47 GMT

dont think otherwise... im doing this all for you

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 10:43:02 GMT

robert told me to pray so i did, but here i am awake again and crying at that. he has no idea whats bothering me. no one does.

god is testing me.

what do i do now?
do i stay or do i leave?
do i love or do i forsake?

who should be living now?

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 00:14:32 GMT

if you dont hear from me for a while dont worry.... im always okay